(Revised/Updated on Oct. 1, 2020)

Wires in my heart.

If you had read the previous posts, you already have some idea what I mean by the title, “Wires in my heart”.

Already since 2013, I have a pacemaker.
At first, you think about the “machine” that they will place inside your body.
But after some time, you don’t think about it anymore and it is just a part of you.

Because of the discovery of heart failure, they had changed the pacemaker to a pacemaker with ICD functions.
If you think about it, it is a bit more serious.
This is because the ICD can give a shock to the heart, when it stops or if there is a heart rhythm dysfunction.

The more you read about heart failure, the more you are thankful that you have this “machine” in your body.

Heart failure is a problem of the heart, that cannot be healed or “fixed”.
It’s a chronic illness.
The only thing they can do is make it a little bit better and improve the quality of your life a little bit.

In the past, the expected life span would be 4 to 5 years.
Depending on how serious your heart failure was.
But nowadays, you can reach much more.

Why suddenly this title, “Wires in my heart”
Suddenly during the day, I got this strange thought.
No idea why suddenly this thought had popped up in my mind.
“I have wires in my heart. What if I would not have these? What would my life be like?”

This is already after how many years, I had my pacemaker.
I did not really think of that before.
Maybe it is the realization of things that are slowly sinking in.
Before your so busy with hospital visits and checkups, you don’t have time to think about it.

But now things are slowly getting quiet and you have time to think and reflect on things.

For now, I am thankful for the technology we have and the knowledge of the doctors.

I need to give this a place in my life, although maybe I am limited in some way, I need to try to make the most out of it.